Musings by Shar

Before last night, I went through a phase where I couldn't write and it wasn't for lack of trying. I had so many things I wanted to put down and share but I couldn't sit down and concentrate for longer than a few seconds at a time ... up until last night. Taking advantage of this opportunity, I realized that it would be the best time to put this year into retrospect in the last entry of 2012. First, the reason I started this blog was because I was ready to take ownership of my life and more importantly, put what I couldn't say into words as a way to help me deal and move on from my troubles. At the beginning of the year, I was dealing with various emotions from anger, sadness, frustration, confusion and many more. I had been hurt by people I had thought to be so dear to me and it was an imaginable pain that I couldn't really deal with verbally. So many emotions were running through my being and for a time, I really didn't think I would be able to see the...

44 days ago I would have never thought that there would be good news to share. I guess in time of great despair you hope for the best while the vision before you conveys the opposite. Through prayer and positive thinking a blessing came unto us. After 44 days my sister woke up. This was the best news we could have received after anxiously waiting for news of improvement. At a time when I had lost hope, my faith was renewed and my prayers had been answered. This moment showed us that when we want something so bad, do not give up home and faith. While it took 44 days for our prayers to be answered, the lesson learned from this is that you don't stop believing in the Lord because he will answer your prayers in time. What it taught us that it takes times time to carve a miracle. It takes time for God to anwer your prayers despite how hard you may pray and how long you are on your knees. He doesn't act instantaneoulsy. He waits and acts in good measure to deliver what you ask ...