Musings by Shar

Matthew 19:14 But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.” We all knew this beautiful being by one name or another.   It is with the heaviest heart that we have to say goodbye to an incredible human today. As an artist, a friend, a brother and a son, [he] was special to all of us in so many ways.   [His] light burned bright for 25 years. When you leave today, remember how he was. How he left you feeling when you spent time together. How the moments you shared were special and brought joy to your life and his.   Let his life not be in vain. If there is one thing he would want us to remember is this: to live life fully. Take the chances. Love fiercely. Laugh a lot. Cherish the moments together.   Music was at the centre of [his] being - through dance, performance and being a musician. I hope when you leave here today, he continues to influence you through his music. I leave you with these last l...

 I lost myself the last few years. I lost the light that burned bright inside of me and I didn't realize until I saw a photo of the shell I became - who I am.  I lost my light and I don't know when, or how, or what ... I feel overwhelmed. I have been sinking and at times it feels like I am drowning to catch my next breath or to come up from under the water. The light I felt is now shadowed by the darkness and I don't know what to do.  I try to find closure in scripture (who would have thought I would turn to the good word, but here I am) trying to find meaning in the moments of darkness as I try to claw my way to the light. Some days it seems unbearable. Other days it seems possible.  When did I give up on myself? I am stunned at who I see in the reflection of the mirror. When did I become a coward? When did I stop fighting for myself? Questions I ask myself as I try to capture the fleeting moments of who I was. But maybe I am approaching this all wrong? Perhaps, I s...

"I think at this time in our life’s we are a good bit apart with things. Like you have a life plan for [the] next 3 years that’s massive different to mine … you are very sociable and out there .. I am the complete opposite. I just feel now that wouldn’t work." No.