Musings by Shar

When I started 2012, I thought this year would be the best yet in terms of life, love and all the things in-between. However, the month of January has not yet even finished, yet I am already cursing the year so far. A friend asked me what I was planning for myself in 2012 and I confessed my resolutions for them on 1/1/2012 at 7:56:11 PM were as follows: 1) Don't be stupid. 2) Cut out the negative people from my life and only let people who have a positive effect on my life in (as I do theirs). 3) Continue to strive for my dreams. I used the past tense, because as I sit here now and re-evaluate the past days thus far in this month. I feel that a re-evaluation is necessary due to the fact that I have probably and most likely have broken 2 of these "New Year" resolutions already. But since January hasn't concluded yet, I feel that I am quite justified in my revisions and will do just that. Revise. I fell for a guy. Hard. And I guess the fact that he has been in...

For me, I had never really gotten the closure I needed to completely move on from my previous relationships into new relationships with other eligible men who wanted to court me. It is one thing to say to everyone that you are completely "fine" and that you are "okay" with how things went, but to fully be able to move on you have to settle the old demons that haunt you from your previous relationships as you eagerly try to move on with the next chapter in your life.  We had dated for over 3 years and I guess it was good while it lasted. We met online which in this day and age, isn't and shouldn't be surprising - but I was only 18 when we met. Of course, my brother definitely had a lot of things to say but when he started to call me and ask me how to reply to some of his online messages without sounding like a douche (as he had recently started to date online), I did want to point out to him about him being a hypocrite but I think I was forgiven for bei...