New Moments || New Year

Happy New Year! 

It's been a few weeks since the last post but the break was well deserved. I needed some time to just do me and breathe. The breather has been refreshing and has given me the chance I needed to live, feel and start moving again. With everything that I was feeling towards the end of last year, I didn't realize that I was stuck in a very bad place - emotionally and mentally. So I took the time to spend with myself which was a really good thing. Without boring you all with the details, just know that I am in a happier place now. I had to will myself into this state because last year was just an emotional uproar that I didn't know fully how to deal with. But I have a better grasp on my emotions now, and life is good. 

I guess when it comes to love ... I am still trying to figure it out. I know what I felt and I know that I have been pretty open when it comes to matters of the heart. If you were wondering if I ever did get my 5 minutes, I am here to tell you that I did not. Perhaps I asked for too much, but I had to ask. Do I still love him ... always. Am I happy for him in whatever he is doing ... yes. Will I be crying again for him this year ... no. I left that in 2014. 

2014 taught me to love hard, take chances and how to let go. I am figuring out the rest now but I am doing it on my terms.

2015 should be an interesting year in just about everything I do: Work, Life, Love. I can't wait to create new moments this year. I can feel that this year will be a good year.


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