BlackAndBlue

I have been finding myself in a better place than I was. It's been a slow process but with new changes and a new pair of shoes, I have slowly started finding my happy. It's been hard some days but I feel that I am making it through. Routine. I just tell myself I am better off. Faking it until I make it.

But when all is said and done, and I am lying in my bed at night, I feel a sense of calm - peace - about things.

And then this track happened.

 Cici laid it down! And then I thought of you. And yes, the thoughts that I had months ago resurfaced and flooded back.

And this one.

You played me, like a damn fiddle. I was such a fool for you. Ugh! You lying piece of shit! I can't even.

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