Blurring Through Life


I dance to the moonless night; alone yet with exhilaration. I breathe air into my lungs - living each day as best as I can. I move to the beat to drown the sound of my beating heart. In the moments that pass, I feel a bit of myself regain consciousness of who I was before I met you. I cannot take you back, but I can move forward and know that you have created something in me. You unearthed a being I had long forgotten about.

Each day is a triumph. I wonder how many days it will take to forget you. Almost never is probably accurate.

I blur through it all. As the pain numbs, to move on ... I must forgive.

The healing process is close. But closure is at a loss.

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