Everyday... Is like out of a movie!
I wake up everyday hoping that I was dreaming the events of the last 3 months. But then reality sets in when I take a look around and I realize that I need to physically get out of bed and get ready because if I don't move, I'm seriously just going to fall asleep.
So I wake up. And then I get ready for the day. I try to be optimistic but sometimes you can only be optimistic for a given time. And being the person that I am, it absolutely kills me because I have always been an optimistic person. But as of lately...life has just been dealing me a bad hand. Or to be more accurate, men have been the worst. I've never been a girl who needs a guy to "complete" her but this has been utter B.S!!! 3 guys in the space of 4 months... and 2 good friends (guys) who decide they are suddenly ready to be with me! Like seriously, a bad hand or what?!!
I would have never been opposed to dating my guy friends especially since our friendship came first. But now, I have to do a double-take! Like I said before in my earlier post, I have in the past had sex with my guy friend's but they want something more than I can give right now.
It's like that predicament ... where, when you are unavailable - all the guys want you; but as soon as you are available and ready to actually consider a relationship or dating, there is no one in sight... how do you deal? Because right now that is a question I am trying to answer. When is it ever the right time? How do you know you are not moving away from something that could be so great when you turn down the guys who seemingly want you at the most inappropriate of times?
All the events that seem to be steam-rolling through in my life seem like they are out of a movie. Something like "He's just not that into you", "Pride and Prejudice/Bride and Prejudice" or "Love Actually" because in all those movies, there is so much miscommunication and misunderstanding that as you watch, you want to scream and shout at them for doing that silly move but you know that it has to end up with a happy ending. That's how it has to be. But real life ain't so ... idealistic. I've watched these movies and they are some of my favourites. But as I watched them, I felt the pain and the anger and the frustration with the characters but I knew it was a movie, so I knew it would be all good at the end of 90 minutes.
Real life just isn't like that though. At least for me it isn't. It just seems like there is just so much going on that trying to balance all of the things at the one time and trying to adjust and do the right thing means that you are hurting someone else or yourself as you do it. There is not right way of doing things like in the movies. *sigh*. I'm stuck in between a rock and mountain and while I can see the side of the mountain going all the way up, I can't see the peak or the climax. And I wish I could because then at least I would be able to make a decision of what I want to do or how to handle things besides cutting people out of my life who have hurt me. (But that is for another post altogether because I have become quite the professional at cutting people out of my life despite how hard it is.)
So I wake up. And then I get ready for the day. I try to be optimistic but sometimes you can only be optimistic for a given time. And being the person that I am, it absolutely kills me because I have always been an optimistic person. But as of lately...life has just been dealing me a bad hand. Or to be more accurate, men have been the worst. I've never been a girl who needs a guy to "complete" her but this has been utter B.S!!! 3 guys in the space of 4 months... and 2 good friends (guys) who decide they are suddenly ready to be with me! Like seriously, a bad hand or what?!!
I would have never been opposed to dating my guy friends especially since our friendship came first. But now, I have to do a double-take! Like I said before in my earlier post, I have in the past had sex with my guy friend's but they want something more than I can give right now.
It's like that predicament ... where, when you are unavailable - all the guys want you; but as soon as you are available and ready to actually consider a relationship or dating, there is no one in sight... how do you deal? Because right now that is a question I am trying to answer. When is it ever the right time? How do you know you are not moving away from something that could be so great when you turn down the guys who seemingly want you at the most inappropriate of times?
All the events that seem to be steam-rolling through in my life seem like they are out of a movie. Something like "He's just not that into you", "Pride and Prejudice/Bride and Prejudice" or "Love Actually" because in all those movies, there is so much miscommunication and misunderstanding that as you watch, you want to scream and shout at them for doing that silly move but you know that it has to end up with a happy ending. That's how it has to be. But real life ain't so ... idealistic. I've watched these movies and they are some of my favourites. But as I watched them, I felt the pain and the anger and the frustration with the characters but I knew it was a movie, so I knew it would be all good at the end of 90 minutes.
Real life just isn't like that though. At least for me it isn't. It just seems like there is just so much going on that trying to balance all of the things at the one time and trying to adjust and do the right thing means that you are hurting someone else or yourself as you do it. There is not right way of doing things like in the movies. *sigh*. I'm stuck in between a rock and mountain and while I can see the side of the mountain going all the way up, I can't see the peak or the climax. And I wish I could because then at least I would be able to make a decision of what I want to do or how to handle things besides cutting people out of my life who have hurt me. (But that is for another post altogether because I have become quite the professional at cutting people out of my life despite how hard it is.)
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