Full Circle

 

When we are growing up, we are protected as kids by our parents or guardians against life's great struggles. We are taught that everything is going to be okay and all we know is that perfect, simple life. But as grown ups, we learn that our parents were only doing the right thing by us; by letting us live an un-jaded life of what was going to come later on. As we grow up, we realize that life isn't what it was made out to seem... but in a way, we are going to be okay no matter what. We come full circle with what we have been taught as children and accept as adults when we realize that through our struggles - no matter what -  everything is going to be okay. That simple lesson we are taught as children becomes our stronghold and mantra through our adult lives. 

And that is the same with love. Love is meant to teach us so much about the person we can be and who we are. We get to learn what love is through the love that we find in an obscure place, as well as in the fate of a fairy-tale ending like Trista and Ryan Sutter from "The Bachelorette", and especially that of our upbringing. We get to experience the good and the bad, and through it all, we always know that despite what may happen, everything is going to be okay in the end. That is what we have been pre-conditioned to know, and that is how we deal as grown ups. We tell ourselves that everything is going to be okay no matter what we are facing. Our friends who are sitting right next to us as we cry into their shoulder tell us that everything is going to be okay after we have have that bad break-up conversation. The best friend who is half-way across the world can only offer those same words through the phone as she tries to calm you down as you sob hysterically into the phone piece; telling you the same thing - "Everything is going to be okay". Your parents hold you as their little baby and try to calm you down with those soothing words that they used to tell you when you were a child when times are rough and you have stumbled as an adult. Eventually ... no matter what, we learn that everything is going to be okay because we believe deep down in our soul that this is just a stumble we are facing. And most importantly, we learn that our love - while it may be lost to an undeserving soul, we will be okay because we still have so much love to give.  

I have been trying to to deal and come to terms with everything over the course of the months. Heart break is never easy but in a way, what I told myself then is starting make sense and materialize. I didn't think I would be okay but through my writing and through my music, I have been able to deal, accept and start to move on with my life because I'm coming full circle with the woman I was before all the shit started to happen. I was okay then before I met him and before I fell in love and I had all the love to give. And now I am starting to take back the strength of the woman I was back then. I'm coming full circle and I love the way it feels. I guess when putting it simple - no struggle, no progress.

We learn to love ourselves and regain the person we were before the heartbreak. We build a resilience too and a thicker skin as we grow and may stumble one too many times but in the end, "we will be okay".